Big Kiss!! 

Second Month...

So, this is the second month, and it's as fun and exciting as ever! I am now on evening shift, which is 2 pm-10 pm, and that has been absolutely great so far with the baby! I get to sleep at night, or at least, when the baby finally goes down! Like right now, it's midnight, and she's still fussing. What she seems to do is she will fuss and fuss and eat and eat, and then she'll calm down when I rock her, until she falls asleep. I usually wait at least an hour before putting her down so I will know she's going to stay down. Tonight, I only waited about 30 minutes, but she was soooo quiet and calm that I truly thought that she was good and asleep. I stood up... waited... she didn't stir. I walked to the bedroom... waited... she didn't stir. I kissed her head goodnight... waited... she didn't stir. I layed her in the bassinett... and BOOM! Her eyelids flew open so wide you'd think she heard a great big noise! So, I turned off all the lights in the room and closed the door to see if she would go back to sleep, but after 10 minutes of crying, I could take it no more. I picked her up, and discovered that, as usual, she had fussed so hard that she regurgitated her dinner and spit up all over herself. But, as soon as she was in my hands, she got quiet again. She is very particular and when she wants to be held, she wants to be held right then and there with no questions asked! So, I changed her diaper and outfit, cleaned her up a bit, and she coo-ed and baby-talked to me and her grandma, as if it to say, "It's the middle of the day and I'm supposed to be wide awake!" After that, grandma decided to try and rock her some more, and I brought her vibrating chair upstairs just in case that didn't work. Well, after only a few seconds of rocking, another spit up!! So, grandma gave up and brought her upstairs, where she is now sitting in her vibrating chair that I am rocking with my foot while I type. And guess what? She is still wide awake. She is yawning, but that just means she's sleepy but fighting it. She didn't get a good nap today because she and I went out. We went to Carter's and bought her some new cute outfits since she's growing out of all her other ones. She is only 2 months old and is now too long for her 3 month outfits! I had to get 6 month ones, and those look like they're going to be just too big! So, what does one do between 3 and 6 months? Either put something on that's too small or too large! Anyway... After Carter's, we went up to the police department to show off. Officer Joyce Combest held her and didn't want to let her go! All the ladies from courts and records were leaving at the time, too, and when they saw her, they all oohed and aahed over how adorable she is! We then went upstairs and saw the other dispatchers that I work with. They all thought she was beautiful! (Of course! She is!) After that, we met grandma for dinner, and then we went to Jenny's house to pick up my jacket, then back home. So, she didn't get a nap at all today! Except this morning. She woke up about 9:30 am and ate, and we were both still very sleepy, so I just held her close to me and she fell asleep in my arms. We slept like that until noonish. It was so nice to just hold her. When working night shift, I wouldn't have been able to do that. Anyways, so that's what my day was like today! And now it's a quarter after midnight, and she's still W-I-D-E awake!! I guess we'll just have to go downstairs and rock some more and watch some more cartoons on television! Yippee! Goodnight!

Hooray!

Hooray! I'm on evening shift now! I should actually be asleep right now, but I'm uploading some new photos onto my yahoo so I can send them to my family! =) Sydnie is asleep, and will probably be waking up soon... But at least I'm not on night shift anymore! I demoted myself and as of this past Saturday, I'm just a regular telecommunication operator and on evenings! Yippee! (Can you tell I'm excited??) Haha! And the baby is doing good! She's just growing and smiling a lot now! (As you can see!) Yay yay yay! Okay, gotta go to bed now! Hopefully I'll be able to blog more often now that I'm on a different shift, but we'll see. I still haven't quite gotten used to sleeping at night again. Good night!

Happy Baby! 

I love new clothes!!! 

A new year, a new begining...

New years day has always been nothing too special to me. It's just another day, another year, nothing special about it... Just means I'm another year older and another year doing exactly what I did the last year. This year is different, though. I feel like it's a chance for a new begining. I have a baby now, I'm living at my parents house again to save money and so Sydnie can have her loving grandparents close, my older sister is married now, and my little sister is living away from home to go to college. It seems like everyone's lives are going in so many different directions! I also feel like this is a chance for me to start over spiritually. I have gotten out of the routine of going to church on Sundays, and although I never felt that I was very spiritual before, or that I even knew anything about church or God, I feel like my life went seriously downhill. I read a book not too long ago that my dad gave me, "Blue Like Jazz" by Donald Miller. It really made me think about my life, and what has become of me. I want to be a better person, not just for myself, but for Sydnie. I want to be a good mom, and I want to change my life. This year is like an oportunity for me to do just that - change my life. After Sydnie wakes up in the mornings sometimes, I will go up to my dad's study and we will chat about the bible and things that I never quite understood about Christianity before. I think I would like to join some sort of a bible study group, but when I think about how little I know about the bible and about everything religious in general, I get nervous, and I don't want to make a fool of myself. Plus, I'm sometimes not good around people I don't know. Maybe I will just start to read the bible a little. My dad said a good place to start is Matthew. Maybe I'll do that. As for changes this year, I'm hoping that I can get a different position at work. Working night shift was tough before, and with a baby, it will only get worse. I am hoping to speak with my boss soon to ask him for a demotion so I will be able to go to a different shift. If he will allow me to do so, I will probably go strait to evening shift, since that's where they need dispatchers the most. But, if there is ever another opening on day shift, (6a-2p), I have highest seniority and would be next in line for that slot! That would be the best shift for me, other than m-f 8-5 of course, and for Sydnie! Anyway, we will see what happens! New year, new begining!!!

Merry Christmas!!